It is supposed to be a carefree summer feeling. I think I am worrying more than having summer fun.
August is soon and my nest will be empty. I have to be strong and not weep, except in the car when I am alone. Well, I weep because I can’t help it. Why didn’t I know this was such a time of mixed big feelings? No one talked about empty nest, ever. The news acts like it is no big feeling or kids come back and the nest isn’t empty. Not true here.
My neighbor’s kid came back but she feels empty and frustrated. We need to talk about all this. Did you guys just stay busy? Did you feel ok by December or when? Busy doesn’t take this feeling away for me even though I work and have a busy life.
My kids are different and I need to be too but how do you be different and be mom?
This is not one of my best days and I bet it is how the summer goes and even after we carry the stuff, unpack, and drive away. I have no idea what that will be like except for tears and then ok and then tears, I guess. I just don’t want to be alone with this big big change.
Mary
Natalie Caine, M.A. natalie@lifeintransition.org
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