Hello,
I am reviewing my life and realize changes always make me feel jealous. It seems others have a community or family to check in on them and give a helping hand. I don’t. I know I will be ok I just don’t have the connections.
I am brave and independent probably due to all the losses and changes .
I have kids who came back home after college. They are in grad school and we can’t afford housing for them.
My parents are gone now and I am in charge of the after details. No siblings
My partner is preoccupied with work.
You know movies show violence but not real pain of aging and starting over when you are a Baby Boomer.
Why is that? It makes me feel less like I am part of the world. I heard we become less visible as we age. I need a reality check on how people are living their life now.
I am planning to live a happy long life. I just didn’t plan this lack of support and laughter. I don’t think joining book groups and knitting will be a match for me. My going to a religious center is not me. My friends have down sized and moved or they are in a different part of their life and not experiencing the emptiness.
I am a fighter for good life times. I am just jealous of people who shop with a best friend, go out to eat, have vacations together, holidays that are a given with family and you bring the gifts and dessert, projects together and celebrations. I will make a new life and for now I am sad that I have to do it. I just didn’t know friendships and holidays and weekends would change this radically when community changes.
Oh, and I forgot, no mistake I guess , that my job is the same it has been for twenty years so I am not inspired. For sure, I will be exploring other options and getting help with a resume.
Changes won’t end. I wanted this time of my life to be more about fun. I am proud of being mom and that is all good but it is their life now not theirs with me. Finances don’t have to be abundant and I do have enough for a good life. We are frugal. It is about connections and support isn’t it? Where is everyone on the weekends besides the gym?
I am just having one of those days where I question what else I could be doing for connections and fun, I guess and at the same time, feeling the sadness that I even have to think about this. At least I am not dealing with life threatening issues and I believe life will improve.
I want to know what you think?
Kim
Natalie Caine, M.A. natalie@lifeintransition.org
i never thought this would be so hard, either. i think some real-life movies about this time of so much change would be great. and not a comedy, and not some unrealistic portrayal of family life.
nothing has really prepared me for all of this–i am a pretty tough girl, but this is taking me for a loop!
i always call people to make plans–it seems as if others rarely call me, but when i do invite someone to do something, they always say yes. so i suggest you pick up a phone and start making plans.
who knows what great things might happen