by Katie | submitted on February 13, 2007
Why did I wait until my kids were gone to confess? My blinders were glued to being a sparkling mom and I was. When I visited this web site, empty nest support services, I never posted. I read the articles, newsletters, blogs, and message board. I was like a peeping tom. I never posted anything.
One evening, I sobbed reading the article on the web, What Do I Want To Be When I Grow Up. “I have always had to be a grown up but I don’t really know what it is to be the child. I want to be the child. I want to be taken care of. I want to be a child when I grow up.” That’s what I kept saying and sobbing about.
Long story short, I realized I need help. I have never gone for professional help nor have I belonged to a group of women who really support my journey. I have always had a career, but not much vulnerability.
I am ready to spend time alone which seems terrifying but I have no choice and at the same time I am ready to get comfort, support and be as little as I need to be in order to know me better.
I get it .When one door closes, another opens and I am ready. I just didn’t know this is what would arise when my house got so dark and so quiet. I still would have to have confessed at some time in life, don’t ya think? Maybe I will be thanking my kids for going off to college because that opened me to being cared for and vulnerable.
Strong woman, little girl, starting over again,
Natalie Caine, M.A. natalie@lifeintransition.org
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