by Jennifer | Submitted on February 10, 2009
I have read books, articles, websites and gone to classes about get up and go, make the changes, grab a new start, my time now, but I can’t keep that motivation going. I am good for about three days, and then, boom.
Maybe it is winter and that makes it harder, but I think it is because I am burnt out in making my life better. I loved when I read here on this website that being is valid and honored.
Self -nurturing isn’t my question just so you know that about me. I am good at that one.
I have raised my girls and the last leaves this month. Tears for sure. I just don’t want to think about it, so I keep busy after work. She has been having her own life even before heading to college. After all, what teenager wants to hang with their mom?
I get all that. I know it won’t be real until we wave goodbye. Tears again, since I will miss her and her friends.
I am just wondering how you guys keep motivated when all your life you have been a self- starter.
At times, I feel like I am missing out because I can’t figure out what’s next or where to get the get up and go. I am very healthy and active, but something is missing when it comes to new connections and finding people who are similar to my values.
This year there is so much talk about volunteering, making the changes and the differences. I feel the excitement. I want to participate. I just don’t want to lead the search.
Do any of you feel this way?
Thanks for listening.
Best to all of you,
Jennifer
Natalie Caine, M.A. natalie@lifeintransition.org
yes, i feel a “split” too, one minute i have motivaiton the next i dont but overall i cant make a decision. i dont know if it’s related to all my old programming of “it has to be perfect”…see there i go again. This is a confusing time of lots of ambivalence. Children filled my life with structure and now i have so many choices and dont know which way to go. i think i have to get over my fear of failure and fear of success and just go with what my gut tells me. So many years of “disowning” my own desires, now i am trying to get myself back. I hope you do too.