I am an empty nest mother.
I was doing fine with my children being out of the house. I don’t know what triggered this loneliness and sadness. One is married, the other is a sophomore in college, and one more is in grad school.
I wonder if it is because I really haven’t found a deep new meaningful passion. I want that so much. I am busy and still not really connected it seems. Connected to clarity. I think about moving and downsizing. I think about a trip, as the clock ticks in my age numbers. I think about relatives I don’t see much and don’t even know if I want to see them.
Health is good. Normal issues I think. I am not really in love. I want that too. Who thought I would be wondering and feeling all this now. I thought when I got free time I would enjoy it. Seems I don’t know how to do that very well.
Creature of habit gets in the way and the lack of vavoom.
I don’t think there is a check sheet about this life now. I don’t even want to live by a check sheet. I don’t think enough people talk about it, either.
All the books and movies and groups were when we were raising our children. I will live a long healthy life so I want to find that passion and meaning for life, again. Is it normal to lose it and then find it?
How do you deal with the funk for so long? I am good at problem solving quickly. No quickly here.
Well thanks for letting me write to you.
A Woman Wondering
Natalie Caine, M.A. natalie@lifeintransition.org
I can relate to you! I’m still pondering what hobby I want to take up and how I want to “reinvent” myself. I’m glad I’m not alone in this! Thanks for sharing your thoughts. 🙂