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It’s About More Than Being Alone

January 10, 2011 | by Natalie Caine | No Comments

I expected the loneliness and the clear fact that I was going to be alone, but I never expected this unreasonable feeling of fear. After my son left this past August for his freshman year, I’ve felt like my mom-sense is on steroids. I’m worried about everything. Now I can’t say worrying is new for me, but not at this level.
 
I’ve read a few stories that have been posted and I’m grateful to see I’m not the only one who is rambling around an empty house and feeling like an earthquake shifted my life off its axis. Right now I’m grateful to be writing this story, expressing these feelings and thoughts I’ve had for 4 months.
 
I’m a professional career woman who has been in charge of all decisions since my son was three, so I’m not a helpless sort. So why do I feel so helpless now? I know it’s because I’m in my retirement from my main job as Mom. I’m ok with that if I could just stop worrying like I’m still on the clock.
 
It’s nice to know I’m not truly alone.

JCShil

 

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